This is my story…

I am fascinated and freed by grace.  That word, grace, was once the chains that bound me.  Defined as “The desire and power to do God’s Will,” it was an impossible standard that I consistently fell short of.  When I met real grace and true love in the real Jesus, I ran free. 

For years, I only felt the tension between what I knew of God and what I had been taught.  Words to describe the tension were still lost in the dark.  Partly because I couldn’t explain it, but also just ignorance, people were completely confused by my experiences.  I wasn’t believed.  I saw danger where there wasn’t any and ghosts in empty alleys.  

I started to doubt my own pain. 

I questioned the reality of God. 

Then, I found books and articles that labeled my pain and legitimized it.  I met counselors and friends who listened and believed. 

These are my stories.  Maybe I can give your pain a voice as well.  Maybe my words can lead you to label the experiences, legitimize the feelings and find relief in grace.  

Encouragement and healing are found at the cross and in Christ.  May Christ’s words and my stories speak life into the wounds of spiritual abuse.  

You can find me now, living my life with God in Thailand as a missionary alongside my husband.  Maybe you ask, how can someone so wounded and abused by the people of God now be a missionary?  How did she keep her faith?  Enter, true grace and the gospel of Jesus.